Um, on Sadness...

So on 1/21 [I think] I wrote a blog about the feeling of sadness and how much I hate it. I'm ready to revisit this topic right now, and actually, I find it very fitting that I have chosen to go through my archives today of all days.

Now, let it be said that I am the type of person who holds very strong in her feelings on things, so for me to change an opinion of mine is extremely rare. However, last night I had an epiphany of sorts and came to several strong realizations.

1. Being a strong person is a good thing. Being weak, or in other terms, having a moment of weakness, does not make you any less of a person. In fact, by allowing yourself to be vulnerable and to tear down your walls for a moment helps you. You become more of a person. In my opinion, anyway.

2. Sadness, like any other emotion, is healthy in moderation. Crying is not a bad thing. Sometimes, a nice mental breakdown is exactly what you need. Being a blubbering, crying mess every now and again is a good thing. Bottling things up is bad.

3. Having someone to rely on can generally make all the difference. As great as all my friends here are, I really seemed to be lacking a support system - someone who I could go to and cry and vent to and just be what I needed to be. Simply put, I was terrified of letting go. But then someone said to me: "You never have to be afraid around me". And I knew it was true. And suddenly, I wasn't afraid anymore.

So, I don't hate being sad anymore. I am accepting it as a normal, inevitable part of life. We will be sad just as we will be happy, angry, envious, or apathetic. So it goes.

XO,
Kerry